I haven’t worked out in 3 weeks, because I got injured, then sick, then hit a week where I’m so busy I’m averaging about 4 hours of sleep per night. It’s, like, haunting my dreams. And I’m stressed, and I feel fat, and I just binged.
I JUST NEED TO GET BACK IN A ROUTINE LIKERIGHTNOW.
… I miss the gym. :(
My tumblr presence between now and the end of May will be sporadic at best. Between finals and a mission trip, I just can’t. I’m sorry. :(
xoxo
I just calculated my BMI, and it’s a 23.7! That’s the lowest it’s ever been in my adult life! I’m so excited!!!!
| Someone talk to me? Work is super slow tonight, and I want to start interacting with you lovelies much more than I have been thus far. |
Recent weeks have included:
- an ulcerative colitis flare-up
- completing the first 9 days of Insanity
- lack of sleep
- some really excellent people
- the beginning of spring weather here
So I’m sitting here thinking about this one time …
(because I’ve seen a lot of feminism-related posts tonight) …
when a guy in one of my classes …
(out of his deep wells of enlightenment) …
SAID WITH A STRAIGHT FACE
that
women
all
have
a
mental
condition
that makes us
unable
to
function
without
a
man.
… So this self-professed feminist and I (I was not one, due to certain others’ reactions to my desire to be a relatively traditional housewife) chewed that boy UP. We tag-teamed from opposite sides of the classroom, and our combined logic was more than he could handle! I have so much respect and appreciation for her, to this day. She gets ALL the high-fives.
Because, in that moment, I swear we were infinite.
| me: | *purchases $7.50 worth of froyo* |
|---|---|
| TCBY employee: | How are you today, ma'am? |
| me: | I'm well, um, yeah - *points at froyo* |
| employee: | |
| me: | |
| employee: | |
| me: | *moseys away* |
But I can’t because my back is a weak little diva.
I never thought to check Netflix for workout videos until tonight. This is my queue now! I’m so excited! I’m going to go to my university’s rec at least twice per week for yoga as well, if all goes as planned. I fully intend to wear my bikini with confidence this summer. :)
I got back up to 140 lbs. I also happened to watch the movie Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead.
140 lbs. isn’t fat or nearly dead, but I still have some chronic health issues - colitis, binge eating disorder, and TMJ, mainly.
So I’m trying something like a juice cleanse!
I don’t have the money for a juicer or a pre-made cleanse, but I do have a blender.
So I guess it’s more of a smoothie cleanse?
So far (3 days), my only cheats have been 3 Hershey’s kisses and having cheese and guacamole on a veggie wrap for dinner two nights. That’s really good for me.
I’m down to 137.5 lbs. already!!
Hopefully this will keep going well. :)
All my not-super-close friends are getting engaged, and I really wish I was someone’s bridesmaid. Sigh.
You know those people who are just so cute it’s annoying? How sometimes it’s just this mental reaction of “… perfection … eww”?
I did something dumb and pissed off my boyfriend, and he went to bed still pissed off at me, and I felt terrible about it, so I binged. I need to talk to someone who’s dealt with this. I need to know how to get past it, how not to let stressful things trigger me like this. I hate this.
And another thing - he’d be even more disappointed in me if he knew. We’ve started working on getting healthy together, and my progress has been fluctuating really badly lately. I was doing better again until tonight.
This was an excellent way to start Christmas.
